07/15/2017

''Hi, I am from Samarkand'' 1 Divergent July in Pushkin is a long, tiring month. The days are long and boiling. The grass scorches and tap water runs warm. The crickets begin to sing loudly. The fat flies which bite humans and eat shit fly around buzzing, viciously in the steamy air. Then they kill themselves in the reflection of the sun, stunt lay in the windowpanes dying, crisping under the hot sun. Lazy wind blows the tips of the dustgreen trees. The soil is like a loose  powder, medium

06/14/2017

I run out of what to write about on  my blog, so here is a great way  to keep cool in summer; Dream of winter glory. *** For the first time in a long time, I was happy. I looked outside of the window and exclaimed ’’Snow!’’  my sisters run to look too. It was surreal. Big fluffy fur like balls of snow were flying down harmoniously. I have never seen such a beautiful snow before. It felt like the time had frozen and I was watching nature's magic in slow motion. It seemed so effortless and

06/06/2017

There is almost no way that I have this many readers and get no comments. Come on leave a comment. I love getting comments. :) How was your weekend? I love to do my house chores listening to these songs on the weekends

06/06/2017

There is an amazing and dramatic story behind the red square shaped suitcase.  This suitcase is a family heirloom.   My Mother is born in to a large family in Uzbekistan, in a small village situated on top of the mountains of Samarkand city. She has two sisters, younger to her. My Mum is the eldest, Maryam middle and aunt Shoista is the youngest girl in the family. I have always been close to my Aunty Maryam.  My mother was forced to marry my father when she was 16 years old and she didn't even

06/01/2017

My desk is a bit like ordered chaos- I often think I should try and tidy it, but its not long before it reverts back to what naturally is. I am a bit of a hoarder, you see, I find inspiration in almost everything but I do try not to collect too much litter, although my study desk is always cluttered. My mood board is where I really let the images be overwhelming, luckily the light from the large window and lighting in the room calms it down a bit. I have always kept a vision board. My mood board

05/30/2017

I have observed; when we are feeling unhappy, we tend to think we need to make drastic changes in our lives. We say: ''Surely if I change my job, or go live somewhere else, my life will be so much better.'' I have been feeling very tempted to leave everything I have behind and go to live in Samarkand. But deep within I know that is not the solution to my loneliness or struggles in life, because in Samarkand I will have different kind of struggles. Solutions can often be found in small things,

05/14/2017

12 real facts of my life. Laugh it or cry out loud it is real and it really happens. Fortunately or unfortunately, here it is. 1. You know nothing of Motherhood unless you scoop out poop with your bare hands out of the water in the bathtub. 2. When you get to go out once a year and even then you decide to wear a jumpsuit. So you spent more time undressing and dressing in the loo instead of dancing. 3. That time when I decided to wear the dress I have owned sirca 2008 to a date and its so

05/13/2017

Since we are in England, tea? Haha let's have tea and chit chat. Go on pour yourself a lovely cuppa and get comfy because the topic is about friendships. Girlfriends; No matter how great your relationship is, or how well you get on with your partner, your life is poorer for the lack of good women friends and family. The way women talk to each other and relate to one another is unique, and most women feel that other women are crucial in their lives, whether its Mum, a sister(s) or a best friend

04/26/2017

There are two types of women I have experienced. First type: the kind of women I have been observing who place their value and self esteem upon all the designer clothes they wear or own. Second type are the ones who say ; none of it matters and they pay zero attention to their appearance. But then there is a group of women who are bang on the middle of that. The ones who don't mind if the flattering dress they wear which suits them perfectly is from a second hand charity shop, Primark or it's a

04/21/2017

Frankly speaking I get a little confused at times in my life. Because I am so torn apart between two worlds that I feel have a big playing part in my life. In my hometown in Samarkand I am not considered one of the decent girls, because of the way I dress, okey let's face it, its just a small Tajik village on top of the mountains. I can't expect much from there but the main problem is in the UK. I am known as too reserved and weird here, weird is the right word actually. Because one night

04/12/2017

If you have been following me for a while, you know that I have always wanted to become a Fashion Designer. Since I was a child actually. Always had a strong passion for fashion. The dream of becoming fashion designer had taken me to so many places and experiences in London. I once worked for a fashion designer in London. I wasn't much of a use to her except making coffee and tracing around the pattern to cut. As well as I went to the  intense 4 months course to be able to pattern cut and sew

04/11/2017

04/08/2017

Always been a big Carrie Bradshaw at heart. Love and romance mean everything to me. Motherhood happened and it shook me a little. Being a mother is the most wonderful feeling but once you begin to give all your love and attention to one little being and you forget how to love anyone else, and you might as well wave goodbye to romantic date nights and fun outings with friends, even style, as the figure is no longer what it was. Instead of hourglass, you will be stuck with a bag of potatoes. Trust

04/07/2017

I did it! I cleared my closet and put my winter coats away. Stored nicely for many, hopefully, more winters to come. Yes I know, you are thinking ''WINTER IS COMING'' right?! Did I guess it? I am a big fan of Game of Thrones myself. In Uzbekistan we believed in colour coordinating seasons of the year. Usually for spring we chose bright and floral outfits, for summer white, light blue, fresh colours as it gets rather too hot. Autumn had everyone wearing colours such as orange, red, brown and so

04/04/2017

This spring marks my eleventh year anniversary of moving to England and I still remember that look on my face, walking around London. The smell of the brewed coffee coming out of the coffee shops, the beautiful grandiose buildings, the people always rushing somewhere made me watch with awe and run into people, bumping into them because instead of looking where I was going, I was staring at everything and everybody with admiration. More than a decade has passed by huh, makes me smile. How time

03/24/2017

I like a good work out. Even in those days when I feel like MEH to go for a run I definitely at least go for a long walk. My favourite kind of get some exercise into my life been through Yoga and Meditation but recently I have been adding Tai Chi moves into that routine. Here is some pics to show

01/31/2017

You can't call yourself a big fan unles you bought a book in a language you don't know and you read it word to word with Google translate  to find out what happens to the beloved characters.  Well I can firmly say that I am a big fan of ''Three meters above the sky'' Recently Federico Moccia closed his famous trilogy , a beautiful story of love. I have spent a week reading a novel in spanish. All I can say is that I am in love with love. I am in love with the possibility of a big love. Never

01/19/2017

One day I took a long look in the mirror at myself wearing a lot of make up and I felt sad. I felt sad because despite the fact that I just spent an hour getting that look I was still looking at myself through a mignifying glass at my wrinkles at spots and it made me sad. I wasn't perfect... I didn't look like the Beauty gurus on instagram. People who read my posts know that I blog because I want to share my personal growth and all the experience and knowledge I gain throughout these coming

01/18/2017

It was 13th of January a day after my birthday. We went out to buy Jacob a pair of gloves. Shopping for me was not in the plans even when I saw all the department shops buzzing with people and sales... Sales everywhere upto 70% off. I couldn't resist a window shopping which lasted 30 mins. When I came across this green thick satin top in Zara, I had to try it on or it would haunt me for months. When I put it on I thought ''Oh my God but I deserve this and I am worth it God knows!'' I took the

01/17/2017

This is a novella one would assume is going to be sad and dramatic and heartbreaking, well that's what I thought of it in the beginning. And I walked in circles around it finding it hard to bring myself to read it. But little did I know that its not one of those novels to make you feel sad and pity the writer but more educational and informative kind.It is sad to some extend but it is more educating rather than just emotional. I feared to read it for quite a while as the writer is my dear sister